punk-fairy-dreamer said: Hi there Rosie! So in your I Never videos, we learn about lots of somewhat regrettable experiences of yours, involving sex, drugs and alcohol. But you don't appear to regret it. How? Can you give me advice on how to not live life filled with regret? Why would I regret any of my experiences? First of all, I’m a bisexual, so I would never regret sleeping with a man or a woman. From a very early age I have accepted that sex with both genders is a thing I am more than comfortable with. Why would I ever regret consensual sex? It’s my body, I can do what I want with it. If I want to have sex with someone, I will. I refuse to feel ashamed or guilty or regret a decision I made. Because I obviously felt at the time it was a good decision and I went ahead with it. So no, I don’t regret having consensual sex with anybody. Secondly, why should I regret drinking alcohol? Sometimes alcohol has made me sick, but that’s what it does, in excess. If you’re a drinker, you learn your limit, how much you can handle and how much you can’t through experience. I had a really wild past of parties and drinking and I look back at amazing memories. I’m not saying you have to drink to have a good time at all, I’m just saying I’m not against drinking and I had good times. Lastly, I would never ever promote anyone to do drugs. Or to have sex or drink alcohol. I would suggest for people to do whatever the hell they want and whatever they are comfortable with and not listen to anyone else. (Except, perhaps some wise friends and family who love you.) I took drugs in the past, and now I don’t touch them, and would never touch the ever again. But I don’t regret anything in my life. Everything that has happened to me has molded me into who I am today. I have learned huge, valuable lessons from my past that make me feel so proud of how far I've come. I can recognize mistakes I've made and told myself not to make them again, and I haven’t. I've learned that it’s ok to slip up, because I know from experience I can get back up and dust myself off and carry on to a better place. I never ever look back on my life with sadness or regret, and neither should you. If you ever do something that makes you feel sad, mad, anxious or guilty, promise yourself that you will not do that thing again if it makes you feel this way. Hold yourself to this promise, move on and learn that you can trust yourself to look after yourself. In time you will trust your instincts and decisions you make as you know you are wise enough to make the best decisions for you." Whoa,that was a ..I don't know what to say.This conversation on tumblr just made me think of my past and compiled some of the questions that people always ask me through the years and turns out,it was one of these things that I was confronted about with mostly on INTERVIEWS hahaha.
Well,she seemed to be a strong woman with strong personality.I respect her and it's good thing to hear those things she used to do made her wiser now.But one thing I definitely agree that she said was our past experience should make us wiser in life. So,this made me do some self evaluation too.Well,it's easy to answer them diplomatically for the sake of answering it sounding intellectual but it is actually so much harder asking them to myself and answer them in full honesty for myself. I decided to take some time today to actually ponder on each question below. My PAST still has a hold on me I think.I have kept telling myself I've moved on but still,I have issues specially with self love and confidence as a result. I might have different answers to the questions below depending on the time frame.If I answer these things when I was younger,everything might probably a regret,unhealthy view of myself and etc.But today,I'm gonna answer all these with honesty as a form of confronting myself too. What is your biggest regret of your past? It was my studies really.I always believe things happen for a reason but I should have prioritized finishing college no matter what.Now,it's pretty harder to get back due to age,curriculum and the fact that I need to transfer to other University is really a challenge.It hurts so much every time. If you could go back in time and fix one thing,what is it? Tbh,right now I don't want to fix anything.I'm thankful for everything I've went through because they made me more understanding,gentle and stronger today. Would you rather be someone else? Audrey Hepburn but she died so I'd rather be me. Do you love and like you? I have so much insecurity but when I'm on my own in my room,I love myself and I like the way I am.It's just the feeling once I step outside my room or when I see myself in the mirror that makes me don't like me.So basically,it's society that I don't like. Is there a part of you that you wanted to change? A lot! really a lot.I want to be taller with really nice teeth.Like I wanted to change a lot but when I see celebrities or rich people who bought beauty and now their face or body parts looks weird,it makes me thankful and just love the way I am. At least all my body parts are attached and I'm really healthy so. This year,I can proudly say I'm more accepting and my confidence leveled up a bit.It's just so tempting to dwell and be bitter of my past but what good does it do to me.It's just a matter of what I feed in my thoughts.People say you are what you think.Your thoughts becomes your words,your words become action and your action becomes you. It took me so much time and lots of personal struggle to finally say I'm thankful of my past and I DON'T HAVE ANY REGRETS ANYMORE. Rosie was right,who we are today is because of our journey in life but I would like to add up my faith in God and the existence of God as a big factor of who I am.The fact that I'm alive till now considering what I've went through is a big reminder that God exist and that there are angels guarding me. So right now,I'm sure I don't have much regrets and bitterness.It took me time to heal,learn and let go but it was such a huge relief.
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