DON'T YOU EVER DARE GIVING UP
Have you ever thought nothing mattered anymore? That you are worthless and nothing but a series of failure? Have you ever experienced too small for this world and felt like you basically got nothing? Nothing to live for? Or have you ever woke up one day and you still feel so tired that you wanted to get back and sleep forever? Or where there days that you just feel empty,hopeless and just depressed without knowing where to start and how to sort all the tangles in your life? So.
This is not something I'd ever imagine to talk openly and post it online ever but I'm compelled to write once and for all.I have encountered lots of times people wondering and curious if I have ever fallen in love or if I was ever in a relationship? Am I too picky? Do I have high standards or maybe I am a LESBIAN considering my feminine side is almost not evident except when I suffer from my monthly period and that was the time people know I'm a female. Some are considerate enough not to ask me directly so as not to offend me and I appreciate it. When people ask bout my love life,I usually just laugh it off to sound like it was nothing serious but to be honest I feel so affected at the end of the day. The real deal is this... So,I saw this post on FB yesterday... She was talking about her brother whom I have a big crush in ages!He's a good looking man (actually all the family members are) but TBH,it wasn't his looks that attracted me first.
SO the photo above pretty much summarizes everything that I'm going to talk about beauty...Yep,you heard me right! I'm talking about BEAUTY! (awkward) hahaha.
The photo above I think is use as an illustration of goal setting but I think it can also be use to demonstrate confidence hence,BEAUTY.Did you see the connection? I obviously ruined it.I beg your pardon.It's up to you.When you see the photo above,what comes in your mind? This is something I have never imagined talking about but yes this is me.Don't you dare doubt it.Rest assured,I'm not possessed even if it's All Souls Day nor drunk or even drugged.I'm on my period that's why.First day of the month,it's Halloween and it is such a big deal to the whole wide world but nothing mattered to me than my period! I am making a big fuss of my first day of menstruation and I'm making a big deal out of it because I feel like I'm dying from blood loss! Anywho,I don't want to go on and on about my period because It's not uplifting at all.It's disgusting and painful and there's nothing much to it so let's just carry on shall we. I'm not a fan of Halloween because I have my reasons just like Taylor Swift has her reasons why she had to SHAKE IT OFF.Probably to shoo away evil spirits of people who are still alive yet rotten inside. However,I'm not a total snub to it either.Not because I'm not a fan of it doesn't mean I'm grumpy about it when people around me celebrate.I just don't have the same excitement like those who really look forward for Halloween.However,I love watching people who are really excited for Cosplay and parties.Children Trick or Treating on the Street makes me smile.It's just cute seeing them in Disney characters or whatever cute stuff they wore while they chase all the candies and their eyes lit up so happy just for the candies!
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This happens when I try to rest my mind but I keep thinking and I seem to keep remembering what I have been thinking and I ended writing them.
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