LUCID DREAM "For the first time in my life,today I dream about my death and a close friend also dreamed about the same thing.My dream was the first part while hers is the ending. It's like we both shared the same dream today and the same story that is all about my death.It was so weird yet interesting.It doesn't scare me at all.I'm more of wanting to understand how could two people dream of the same thing at the same time? I summon psychologist out there to help me understand.Tl Marie Hazel,Ate Shil and Adesty?" Just had this posted on my FB status.My dream for today is very unusual and it really bothers me specially when Verms told me that she had the same dream. I was standing 3rd in line for persecution for an unknown reason at a certain place.It was crowded but none of the faces are recognizable.I don't know anyone except Melody,my high school classmate who was the 2nd to be persecuted.I look around and saw her family still hopeful that she'll be acquited.I don't know what our crimes are and why we are being subjected for persecution.The people on the line are just beheaded just like that. When I saw my batchmate beheaded,I started planning how to escape.I saw my stuff on a sit near the door so on the count of three,I run as fast as I could grabbing my bag.I kept running as fast as I could.I don't know where and for how long.I just run so fast not even looking back. The moment I stepped out the building,I was running through a deep bushy but hilly area.Then when I made huge leaps,I saw rice field before me.But I'm too tired of running and I think I was able to lure the men pursuing me.I spotted a cave and hid so I can rest.I was supposed to hide when I heard some fainted voices of two women.I peeked and saw Verms' two sisters following me with Gab.I don't understand how they suddenly entered the scene when I didn't even saw them at the court earlier.Well,that's how dreams are weird really. Anyway,I went to meet them and instead of asking them why they were here.I just carried Gab and we continued running until we were really so tired.We saw bunch of people parading on the rice paddy so I suggested we should hide.I recognized the first woman in line,it was Jenny,one of my childhood friends.I didn't say anything as I can sense she already knew that I'm a fugitive and she's obviously torn whether to report me or not.I'm not talking but my eyes were telling her to spare me.In the end,they helped us by bringing us to a really nice modernized house past the vast rice paddies.I don't know who owns it and why it's in the middle of the forest as I prefer not speaking at all because I'm still scared for my life not sure if I'm really safe or not.I glanced at Verms sisters and they were busy feeding Gab.They are not scared or worried at all.They don't even seem tired.I asked them if they ever informed Verms where we were and they said no so I decided to text Verms.But I'm in fear that once I turn my phone on,they might be able to track me.I was holding my phone still debating whether to text her or not and it was when I woke up. I checked my phone assuming it's still early but I was shocked it's 1pm.I was able to sleep really long and it's something new.I opened my laptop and PMed Verms.I slept again and woke up 10pm.I saw Verms SMS asking me to check her message on FB.I did and it scared me bit.I don't know which one took me more,Is it my shock or my curiosity. Apparently,Verms dreamed about me almost at the same time.She said I died in my sleep.It was a short dream but it seemed like a continuation of my dream.Our dreams were obviously interconnected,it was on the same page.It still about my death and it was her sisters and Gab too who was there on his dream.They were the one who broke the news to her about my death. It was really weird because never in my life nor did I ever heard of anyone who dream of the same dream at the same time.It scared the both of us so Verms called me after. I was in deep thoughts about this because its the kind of dream that really bothers me meaning it means something.I honestly don't know what to make out of it.It got me thinking,what if I die right now? Some people avoid this topic but I'm ready to confront myself.What ever this dream meant,I'm willing to figure out.I just wish God will tell me what it means. It got me thinking,if ever I die I think it's more reasonable and convenient.First,I'm single so I don't have a husband to be widowed and kids needing me.Second of all,I'm not close to any of my family and no one is counting on me so I guess I'm not a total loss.Third,my life is meaningless and pretty much I'm living only for myself.I'm not part of any organization for a good cause.I'm not supporting anyone.No friend is counting on me.I mean I have less connections with people so I guess my death is no biggie.But that's really a weird one! Most told me to just let it go because it's just a dream.They are right but why do I get the feeling like it meant more than a dream? FADING AWAY 11/24/12 I was running after her.I cannot tell exactly who she is but I'm sure I knew her.Some one I met in the past .She seemed familiar. Too bad I just saw her from behind that's why I'm chasing her.I was desperately calling her,running after her when all of a sudden 3 brat girls blocked my way.They were some sort of fraternity sisters or maybe cheer leaders.I don't know and I don't care.I excuse myself but they cornered me and the tallest girl gave a signal to some random guy (who just appeared out of no where!) to chase and kill my unidentified friend.I can't move,I can't even scream.I saw from behind that the man shot her.I heard her body hit the floor.She fell faced down so I didn't get the chance to see her face.I was so angry much so I was able to push all the 3 girls who were blocking me.I was running after the man who's carrying her unconscious body after he shot her.I followed them easily because of her blood trail.Then all of a sudden,there was a block out as in I can't see anything.I don't know what's happening.It just got so dim.I was surrounded with thick dark fog.I can't see.I can't cry and I can't scream.I can't call her name because I'm not sure who she is.I just knew her face is familiar.I was very angry with the man who killed her and the bitchy ladies who held me earlier.With much desperation,still I went after them even if I can't see anything.I kept tripping or hitting on some wall.I think my head hurts and blood was gushing out.I don't care.I just continue running after them determined to get my friend dead or alive.I run and run and run.... I finally saw a certain light coming from a hole.I bump into the wall as hard as I can.To my surprise, I saw 3 of my closest friends coming from different corners of the room.They came face to face with the three bitches.I was so confused and tired and angry.I didn't even have the time to ask what's going on .It was too quick! All I know was I saw my three old friends possessed the bitches.They all turned back to me smiling as if telling me,I don't need to worry.With their new image they gave me that look that they will go after the man who took away my friend.Then I heard a very loud noise.It was not clear at first.I listened more..It was actually a song....I knew that song.it's one of my favorite song on my playlist.Then I realized,it was my alarm clock.Gosh,I have been dreaming all along! Thank God it's not real. ZOMBIE BRIDE 8/20/12 I just had the weirdest and scariest dream today.In my dream,my ribs were coming out one by one.I was holding each bone trying to get them back to where they should be but I'm helpless. The bones were very brittle and the driest bone I've ever seen.It's like the bone you get from people who were buried in a very long time.I was so freaked out and crying and screaming to my mom telling her,I'm going to die so I should be rushed to the hospital.I have suffered from the throbbing pain earlier but I kept ignoring it hoping it would just go away.The pain is so hard to explain.It's like a driller penetrating through my ribs and my hips.It was so painful.I've felt my bones moving in fast circular motion until I saw them come out one by one. My dream's setting was in Ifugao at our own house and I was surrounded by my brothers and sisters and mom. I stood in front of my mom and I was shaking her to call for a taxi (I don't have any idea how a taxi would get there) so they can rush me to the hospital.Mom saw my ribs were coming out one by one but she was just there emotionless,plain and blank.Her face seems to tell that she don't care anymore and it's better to let me just die instead of rushing me to the hospital while I was there already crying in physical and emotional pain.Then everything was total blank.I thought maybe I passed out.Am I dead? Where was I? After a few minutes of darkness,I woke up and find myself in a wedding gown on a wedding.I can't feel myself so I started touching myself starting from my ribs trying to convince that I'm actually alive and that what happened earlier was just a dream.(how cool is that to have a dream in a dream,INCEPTION ang peg)But I was so shocked of what I found out.I don't have my ribs but the other bones are still there.I just have my spine and head and my arms and feet.In short,I'm pure skeleton with no flesh and blood.What's more scary was my bones were made of like thin strands like that of a hard broom.I can't understand if it's a bone or a nerve that was dried up.I tried touching my right arm using my left arm but my bones were so brittle and dried that I ended crushing my right arm.I was broken and were in tears when I'm interrupted by a voice reading the wedding vow to me.I tried facing him but its so strange coz I can't remember details of his face.I just knew he has a muscular body clothed in "barong tagalog" and black pants.I was on my wedding gown and we were surrounded by an officiating minister,my immediate family and some few church members of my home church in Ifugao.Then I heard my husband - to -be voice promising me that in sickness or in health,whatever the cost or whatever happens,he will never ever leave me nor forsake me.That he will love me forever.I felt so confused of what's happening.First,who is this guy and why am I getting married,I never wanted to get married in the first place.He's almost finished with his vow and he's promising me that he will take care of me forever.While he is so serious declaring his love for me,I'm so busy trying to awake myself up to make sure everything is real.After much attempt of trying hard,I finally gave up and accepted that maybe everything that's happening is for real and that for the first time,I stopped freaking out and just accept it.I feel peaceful for the first time. After the wedding rite,I joined my sisters who were seating in front of a fire warming themselves.With them are few church members from Ifugao.They were actually warming themselves because its so cold while they went on a serious fasting for me.They devoted such a long time fasting and praying for me hoping I can regain my own health.I was a walking skeleton but they were not scared of me.When I joined them then all of a sudden,everyone stopped singing and no one is saying a single word.I just smiled and joke around and said,"okay guys,It's not that I'm dead,just continue what you are doing"...I started singing and everyone joined me until we all ended in sweet hum. I still can't believe if any of these were true so I tried to wake myself up because I'm convinced I'm dreaming.And on my 4rth attempt,I woke up for real and I check the time.It's 2:30 Pm and I just woke from a very scary and weirdest dream ever.I can still feel my headache and it's gone worst.I took paracetamol before sleeping but there's no improvement.I think when my migraine attacks,there's no cure for it. Anyways,I'm not usually this bothered but my dream is very different in a lot of ways.It's so scary and unusual and very symbolic I think.I know its stupid to be bothered by my own dream and to even believe on it but I can't help it.I just felt there's something wrong and I knew it.I have a thing with dreams.I am no Joseph the dreamer type of person but still I'm a believer.I was wondering if this is an early warning or a secret message for me to understand and reconsider. I notice though that there was really a pattern in my dream or would I say consistency rather.In my dream,I have been desperately trying so hard to escape by waking up but every time I did so,I'm still in the same place surrounded by the same people.The order of events and the situations had changed in at least 3 times but still,I'm with the same people.They were my family (mom and my brothers and sisters) ,my home church brothers and sisters who stayed with me all this time and the setting was always at home.I know I have no basis in my own interpretations but while I'm trying to forget it,the more it bothers me.Could it be that it's telling me two important things.To take care of myself and to pay a visit to my family.After all,everything starts and ends in family.This maybe all relevant,or maybe not.I truly don't have any idea at all.Help me Lord..
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