It's easy to say,I love myself that's why I'm pampering.That's why I go to the gym.That's why I go on diet.That's why I'm watching my weight.For a moment,you stop and search yourself fully.Are you really doing this for health reasons or to just to be accepted by this cruel society who get to decide what's beautiful for you? Are you doing this to have a long healthy life or you're doing this to improve your confidence in the eyes of someone you wanted to seduce badly physically? Either or,it's a win-win anyway so carry on!Haha! So today I ate spinach and suddenly I feel so bright enough to write these things.No,actually it might be the bacon.Or the egg.Or the dressing I've made.Or maybe,I'm having my period.Yeah,more like it.I'm having my period so it makes me think I'm smart to write enough.Or maybe not.OMG.I'm not gonna write about SALAD...yet! I know I'm not qualified to anything but to myself alone.But I know I'm entitled to my own opinion because I fancy my own opinion and I'm not judgmental.Let me correct you,I'm INTUITIVE according to SIGMUND FREUD or who ever the proponent of types of PERSONALITY TESTS.I'm sure all of them are dead by now.God bless their souls.I just don't understand why my College Professor fancy them a lot and keeps on bringing their names in class.He spoke about them a lot with passion everyday in my PSYCHOLOGY class. This,alone will tell you I'm so qualified enough to write something credible.Or maybe not.Okay,I have to stop this... On a serious note,it's just that people now a days on social media are so obsessed with themselves and by that I mean selfie and it annoys the all of MESELFIE.Or maybe MINESELVES. Around the world,people join certain organization such as human rights,equality and peace and I adore that.Be an activist,be part of something you can proudly defend what you believe in BUT hear me out first. Recently,I have seen so many people demanding things for themselves specially self respect.They demand love and time.They demand for forgiveness, equality, justice and the list goes on and on.But have you ever wondered,before demanding anything are you capable of giving it? I think you cannot give out something you do not have.If your heart is full of anger and resentment,that's the thing you see in others.If you're full of pain and negativity,that's always what you see.You cannot give what you don't have.Hence,you cannot have what you didn't give.It all starts from within.When you love yourself,you know what love is and you can easily give that out,people in return will give back without hesitation. I'm speaking out of experience...But it doesn't mean I'm right.Okay,maybe I am making sense now.I guess?! hehehe. PERSONAL RECOVERY STORY On a daily basis,I also have certain demands and expectations from people specially friends,family and love ones.But then I realized,I cannot just demand anything from people.I believe life is a give and take.I cannot just keep on taking from people and then never giving back.I think that the root cause of anger,resentment and disappointment is my own doing.My thoughts and expectations caused me so much pain.I was narrow enough to even consider the bigger picture.
Ugly life,ugly past and physically ugly.I wish I was someone else.It was really a sad conception of myself because of how I was treated. It took me so long and lots of assurance from friends for me to start liking myself.It took me years before I can confidently see myself in the mirror and start smiling.It took me such a long time but I'm glad,today I can now look at myself anytime in the mirror and love that person.I love how she turned out to be.I love how much happier she is.I love how she can laugh and giggle uncontrollably.I love how she can smile sweetly and EASILY.That girl grew up away from the people who use to bring her down.I was surrounded by loving and positive people now.I started having gentle and genuine friends who appreciate and tell me I'm fine.Little by little,she transformed from a caterpillar into a butterfly.The best thing about her is she don't feel any anger towards them anymore specially her mom.Okay,I have to stop speaking in the third person because it's weird.hahaha. I don't know how it happened but I think it all started when I started to like me.I'm starting to do the same thing to people even those who left scars in my life.I use to cry of the memory but today,It makes me smile because it made ME. IT COMES FROM WITHIN Of all things,I don't think one can ever demand respect.Respect is not something to ask for.It is something the person gives freely to you if they think you deserve.It should really comes from within.If you hurt,disrespect and hate yourself so much,then how would you expect people to love and respect you? The irony of this generation is we use social media shouting all our wants when sometimes,the answer is just in front of us,no need to shout we just need to see things clearly and live it.We post everything we are doing,unlimited selfies in social media for what? To gather sympathy? Maybe to boast of the things we have or we just wanted attention.Is that all?! Going back to self respect,I created my tumblr account purposely to follow health and wellness blogs.I started my tumblr March this year.Never have I considered making friends or getting attention or being followed by certain individual who also share the same passion as mine.I never imagined this is a world wide opportunity to get to know people and be friends with them. I'm excited to tumblr than facebook because It felt like someone put a platter of my favorites before me so I can just spoil myself.It's way different than facebook.With tumblr,I'm anonymous except some few friends from the office that I followed and followed me in return.But the coolest thing about is I filter who I follow so every time I open my tumblr,the only thing I see on my news feed are things I more likely enjoy. It was great until I realized some of the fitness blogs I'm following are turning into something I don't agree with to the point that they go to the gym just to take selfie of their abs and post it on their social media account to get likes.Okay,it's just my feeling.Maybe,some really post about it so they can encourage others specially those who use to be obese which by the way is rare.Most of the fitness instructors I follow are usually born blessed with hot bodies.Well,I am born with a warm body.Not hot,just warm. My point is,they go to the gym just to get toned to perfection so others like me will drool over their gorgeous sexy form. I just feel annoyed that fitness is turning "pornish" only decently if you know what I mean.They go to to gym or for a run wearing only workout bras so their wonderful abs be displayed or their good shapes be exposed and people in general enjoy staring at them.But if people like me who have lots of bulgy stuff anywhere in my body go for a run or the gym like that,I bet people will wish me to get lost! People in the gym post something like this... Or go for a run as hot like this... and I'll be running like... HEALTH AND WELLNESS IS BEYOND PHYSICAL THING I'm not really much into hardcore workout.If I would join an organization I would be on the CLEAN EATING PART.I'm more of over all health and wellness.More of what people don't see such as body resistance and ability to fight certain diseases and illnesses.I believe over all health and wellness.I admire people who's heart are healthy.Those who have the ability to love and forgive so many people without expecting in return.I'm more of spiritual and emotional work out than physical.Atleast,I'm not tempted to show off how much I've improved but instead with my whole being healthy,people will be the one to tell me how healthy my life is.Not just my body.I believe in healthy eating.I hate crash dieting.I opt for something less processed and not branded.Something I don't see on tv advertised by celebrities with the camera focused on their boobs or abs or butt. DRAWING THE LINE Most people today love posting daring photo of themselves on social media for everyone to see.The fact that you put a photo of you almost naked in social media means you are ready to face the consequences.The thing is we only expect positive ones and get angry to negative comments.Not all people have that kind of decency.If you can't take negative comments,you should have keep it to yourself instead of acting like an idiot defending yourself. I learned that people who don't know you don't need your explanation because their perception of you will not change unless they know you.And people who know you also don't need your explanation because they know you.What else is there to explain? Unless of course it's your mother or your partner then that's a different story :) Recently,a 26 year old part time model was found dead and suspected raped before getting killed.This kinds of news are horrible and disgusting.What bothers me though was when I saw her photo. I wonder,if she have worn something more decent going home at night,could it be that she's still alive by now? When we were younger and have arguments in our family,I always hear this line from my brothers "I deserve respect" because I'm older".I want you and order you to respect me.In a very drunk state! Apparently,I have to give them respect because of age. I heard lots of women calling some random guy in public "bastos" after being caught staring at their boobs or booty.I just wish,before calling someone bastos,check yourself in the mirror before going out maybe.Are you decent enough and respectable enough?Yes I'm conservative but also open minded.In fact,I admire tons of women who can just pull off a tshirt or shorts or underwear and they look hot and desirable.Only,those skin exposure has it's limitation and proper place.But I'm not really into that kind of respect but more of over all respect. HOW DO YOU SEE YOURSELF
Britney Spear's song "Girl in the Mirror" talks about herself at some point she thought she knew her but some point she wish she did. Jesse J's song "who you are" talks of a woman who stare at herself in the mirror wondering why she's hurting herself.Colbie Caillat's "TRY" is about women trying so hard to hide their own real image through make up.The list of songs goes on and on but still,how come more beauty product and cosmetics are more consumed than any product in the market today? It's really weird watching supermodels endorsing products about sexiness when in truth,they were born naturally sexy.Lots of young ones wanted desperately to be the celebrity they adore.Also,businessmen took that as a great opportunity to make more money. I believe we are the way we are for a reason.I really think the world is boring if all of us have the same shape and personality.Lots of people are so concerned with their physical looks.They go to the gym to look better.They go to shape up and form some abs so they can have a cool selfie and garner likes and reblogs on social media.They post half naked photos of them and then demand for self respect. I say,you might be the sexiest woman alive but if you have poor health,you're literally poor health wise and eventually be ugly.Whereas,if you are healthy in and out,you are rich because health is wealth. I wish every woman out there will eventually learn how to look into their inner beauty instead of too focus on what the society deemed as beautiful and acceptable.Respect yourself enough so people will give you respect too.I wish someday,when you look into that mirror,you can also smile and giggle and dance and tell yourself that you are beautiful that you don't need to hide in cosmetics and illusion.Don't get me wrong,there's nothing wrong in it.But don't make it ruin your life. When you respect yourself enough to be like that, then I think the rest will follow.I don't expect anyone to have ever come across this blog but if there's one who ever get the chance to read this and you can relate,then I wish you can start from within.I assure you,when you know how to love yourself then the rest will follow. Respect yourself in a way that you don't degrade your own.This way people will start treating you the same way :)
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