I was at PowerBooks a month ago,scanning through the book shelf.For a moment,most of the book titles really made me wonder.Are we that desperate these days? What impression can one make from "How to Flirt","How to get a Date","How to Please your Man","How to be a millionaire" And it goes as far as "How to fall in love",'How to be attractive" etc... and not to mention endless beauty products endorsements.There are even books about "how to live your life" Seriously,did someone just tell me how to live my life? Am I a robot now? I don't know and I don't want to sound like a genius because believe me,I'm just another idiot.I probably needed more help books than others.It's just that when I was there surrounded by thousand of "how to's" books.It felt like we are that desparate and lazy anymore to think on our own that we need others to sort out things for us.Sometimes,we are good in creating a mess and we expect someone to sort it out for us. Well,I won't be surprise if someone will write a book too about this... Truth is I prefer fiction.They are my fave type of books.It just let me validate things on my own.In fiction,you get to see and learn things the way you see things according to your own values and sentiments. Well,unless someone write about "How to kill a cockroach without splashing all it's belly content all over the place" then I think that would be awesome.Oh,wait I could actually author it with the title "101 ways on how to kill a cockroach gracefully and kindly" so PETA will not accuse me of murder. We are in an era where taking selfie photo is more important than enjoying the place We are in a culture where affection is commercialized Where every single thing we do is documented online People rarely talk anymore Well,the paradox of our age... “I don’t know what to say anymore. My mind runs blank every time I open up the page where I used to spill my heart. I used to have so much to say, now I can barely write a sentence. It’s you. You have the affect on me. You walked into my life, and I can’t find a place for you just yet. I’m lost for words, yet my heart is screaming with the things I want to say to you.” LOST FOR WORDS I don't know what's more painful.Is it having to pretend I'm not affected or the feeling of loosing my connection with people I cared the most? I really think that there's no such thing as DEFAULT feeling.I think that one of the most temporary thing in this world is feelings.I personally believe that they are just pigments of the moment I'm currently in. I think that the ability of each person to keep a long lasting relationship is a choice.It also has something to do with the personality ,moral values and perception of a person in their individual lives. A reporter asked an old couple.How did you manage to stay together for 65 years? And they replied... That makes so much sense!It was really impressive and inspiring.I really really believed that there's always a choice.There's no such thing as no choice.The fact that you have to let go of someone no matter how painful it is for you is a choice.
As John Green puts it,maybe it's FAULTS IN OUR STARS. Or is it just the PARADOX of our age.I have no clue. Today,it felt like relationships are taken for granted.Love is cheapened.Moral values are commercialized.Gadgets are becoming more and more of like a necessity.Sometimes,I feel so small.I realized,the things I wanted is never enough.There's too many changes that I'm having a hard time dealing with.Or in the business world,it's called innovation.I think the environment we live in and the culture we dealing right now is really very challenging .It's hard to fight and survive each day considering all the pressures of having to keep up with the present time.There's too many offers on social media that any child of this age might deem as true and accurate.Anyone who wanted money and fame can just go to YouTube and do something crazy that would catch the worlds attention. Well,my mind today is obviously revolting to no one in particular.I'm so lost.Maybe pain is an obsession.Maybe pain is a necessity.Maybe pain is something that I'm good at.I just don't know.I'm totally blank.I don't know anymore... Paradox of our age...
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