Okay,it's not that I'm a drama queen.It's just that I have that mood of a tiger and the face of a fierce leopard.And I was born in a jungle so meeting people,making friends and having to come up with small talk is really not my thing.Just offer me coffee and I will love you for the rest of my life...okay,and a banana cake maybe and we will be BFF! In my lowest of lows,I wanted to just fade away and just be gone just like that! No big footprints or any trace of me.Maybe I can leave my scent just in case. On a serious note,there's really a time in a year where I have the lowest of lows.Those were the times where I feel like no friend or family can comfort me.I know it's weird (maybe) but in such down times,I mostly draw comfort and strength from my fave movies and tv shows and lately,youtube channel. I simply just stayed home and watch my fave tv series repeatedly until I feel better before sleeping or if I can't sleep I would kill time spending hours and hours watching til I get tired.Some might pity me but believe me,it's really the best moments for me.It really helped me get up each day. Each and everyone has different ways of coping up in our hardest times.Some through food.Some trough travelling.Some go to the gym while some do online games.Others treat themselves through spa.Well me,I indulge myself to tv series and watch it over and over again.I feel comfort in being alone than being in a crowd or with a companion.Okay,maybe a drinking companion is much appreciated. In 2011,It was Smallville.I was burned out from work and some family issues really burdened me among other personal things and I got more and more depress each day.I have friends but still I cannot get that comfort from them.When I found out about Smallville,It literally was my comforter in months.I was so obsessed with it in every possible way.I like the story,the character,the conflict.THe moral lesson.I just feel like I can relate to the stuff most of the main characters are dealing with.I'm not really into syfy but I ended watching Smallville because of this girl.... I first saw her face in Studio 23 a few years back when I was in second year college.It was just a quick commercial.I never have any clue who she was and what show she's from.Few years afeter,I was passing along Ever Gotesco around June 2011 and I saw her face again on a dvd cover.I finally found out that it's a tv series called "Smallville" and she was the love interest of Clark Kent.And I remember that excitement in my face and purchase the first 3 seasons without even considering if I like it.And I spent the whole night watching one whole season and then in just 2 days,I went back and purchased the remaining seasons! I finally knew her name.My first celebrity girl crush-Kristin Kruek! In 2012,it was the tv series FRIENDS.I was really obsessed with it ,also mainly because I have a huge crush with Jennifer Aniston.I would ridiculously spend hours and hours replaying certain episodes each day until I feel better to the point that I almost memorized the lines.I super love Phoebe's weirdness.Joe's mediocre but sweet personality.Ross and Monica's strong personalities or Chandler's sense of humor.They are just so perfect together! My obsession to this show was even more as compared to Smallville.Most of all,I just love Jennifer Aniston's acting and sense of humor.Also,her different hairstyles. In 2013,it was LDHP a Spanish tv series uploaded in youtube with English subtitles.Among all my obsessions,this is the worst! It lasted for a year to the point of stalking everyday news about Marian and Laura Sanches.The show was few years ago but it's still so alive on youtube that it keeps on garnering thousands and even million views til now.I was really so obsessed to it to the point that I'm trying to learn basic Spanish just so I can read some Spanish blogs! I just love the sense of humor of the show .I don't like how it ended also many times the plot was poorly written but the main casts brought so much charm to the show and it really made me so happy watching it specially CURTIS' epic fail moments! Just as I thought my obsession is getting worse I have to find other avenues to distract myself.So I shun away from youtube for a while and have spent a couple of months reading books and reviewing some random movies that I've watched on my blog.And then,I was a bit busy. Early this year,I was not down or something but I was watching a clip on youtube and it led me RoseEllenDix channel.And again,I forgot about LHDP and have my new obsession that's been for 5 months now! It's getting worse and I think I need rehab! The difference with my previous obsession was all those shows already ended and so I was forced to move on too though I still get to watch them from time to time. As for RoseEllenDix channel,it's actually a real life vlog so probably my obsession is longer.For as long as Rose is active on youtube,I think I'll be needing a rehab sometime or an anti-addiction pill sort of.Only,I don't want to be cured from this addiction :) I have already wrote a very long reason why I love her so much which can be find somewhere in this blog too... link ; http://aprilmaynjune.weebly.com/obsessions/the-roses and my fave quote of hers to date ... Sometimes,I feel guilty for watching to many American ,Candian,Spanish and English tv series and even Bollywood films than any local shows or movies.But what can I say,they help me get through each day so I hope I will be given that consideration :) In short,I'm boring and I don't have a life! Current tv series that I'm hooked on are ; GAME OF THRONES,RIZZOLI & ISLES,HBO GIRLS,BEAUTY & THE BEAST,LOST GIRL,MODERN FAMILY,NASHVILLE ( for the cool country songs)and I have countless fave movies! Bottomline is,I'm fine!If there's one thing I learned from all of it.It would be similar to this... Yes,at times I'm such a drama queen.Or too moody or most of the time overthinking but,I also know how to pull myself through like no one can make me stronger than my own self.
When I'm my lowest of lows,I kinda know the drill.Good movie,fave hang outs and of course COFFEE with banana bread. As long as I'm in a room with fridge full of food and a coffe maker.Also,a nice bed.Then I can hibernate in months or even a year!
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