Tonight,out of the blue,Miss B asked,"Glowie when was the last time you were in a relationship? I look at her and I was like "What,say again!?" And rephrasing her question,she asked again,"Have you ever been in love before?".I looked at her and she's looking at me so I stared at her (not to be redundant I figured stare is more intense) and said, "pardon,say again?!". At that moment,the words RELATIONSHIP & IN LOVE suddenly became jargon to me so I didn't really have any answers to her questions right away.Next thing I know,it feels so hot and I was looking for my pony tail because I can feel my sweat on my head.I tried to compose myself because I was really laughing like crazy.I don't really know why I laugh hard on that very serious question of hers.I know It's not a funny question but I just laugh.Why did I laugh?! To buy time,I guess?! Not sure.I'll get back to you once I have the right answer. You might be wondering what's the relevance of the screenshot above to my answer to your question.Hahaha,it's so obvious! There's no relevance at all.Read it again and tell me if there's any relevance.I just put it there to make me sound geeky and for you to have an impression that I'm wide reader.I just thought it's also good to decorate my page with a red INK that says,"I hate Love".Isn't that cool?! I'm practicing my line because love month is fast approaching. Anyhow,I think it's a question that I got like thrice this year with all seriousness.I also think some were wondering but are hesistant to ask me out of respect or maybe it's just awkward to ask.What ever it is,maybe it's about time to answer the question.So I thought I'm gonna write her a letter to answer her question since I wasn't able to give her a decent satisfactory answer a while back.I usually have late reactions with such certain situations so forgive me if my answer is really that delayed.So here's my letter to her.And I figure it might be better if I start my letter with something very dramatic and touching so that explains the photo below,because this letter will be very very serious heart to heart honest revelation. Dear Miss B, The question was...ahm,sorry what was that again? Ooops,sorry about that.You were asking when was the last time I had a relationship?Ah,okay.That's an easy question.Anyway,thank you for that wonderful question but before I answer that very wonderful question,I can sense you're really wondering so your question is really wonderful.Did you see the connection of the adjective I used that turned into a verb? I was actually amazed I can use the word "wonder" both as adjective and noun in one sentence! Like how cool was that! So okay,where am I again.Sorry,I'm just amazed I'm getting better in English. So,you were asking me if I have ever fell in love? Is that right? But before I proceed,I wanted to thank my family specially mom for raising me up and my hometown for the memories I have such as,ahm,you know I can't remember anymore.Sorry,too much coffee took my memories away. Going back to your question if I was ever in love before,I will answer you.Here's my answer-I may not be an earthworm who have five hearts,a hagfish who have four hearts,an Octopus who have three hearts but I do have a heart too and it's only one.(unfortunately).I was really jealous of the earthworm who have five hearts.Atleast,it has four other hearts if ever the other heart is rotten. In school,my science teacher taught us that we can love with our heart and I find that very interesting because I remember I was first in love using my eyes.When I saw my cute seatmate,I started stalking him in elementary and when he don't give any importance to me at all,I just stared at him threatening to hug him if he don't talk to me at all so as a result he avoided me the whole year! I really think he is a very bad boy because he hated me for me loving him.But that's not the point.I was in love using my eyes and my mouth and my nose so I don't see any reason why my teacher said we love using our hearts. It took me years to understand what my teacher meant by that.In high school,I have a huge crush to a classmate and now understand.It must be because I can feel my heart thumping and it goes boombooroomboooom everytime I see my first crush in high school.But still I find it weird because I also feel the same thing when I'm frightened or late or broke something or hit or slap someone (I never hit or slap someone by the way)or when my PE teacher forced me to dance with my partner that I'm so shy and not comfortable with.I just don't know how could my heart thump like that all the same. Anywho,to answer your question if I have ever been in love,Have I been in love? Please give me time to think about it.Ahm,hmm,but just to clarify,when you say love do you mean just the feeling without commiting to any relationship or is it love like allowing that person to touch you anywhere,to touch all of you (and kiss you too,I suppose).You see,it gets so confusing these days.I don't actually understand the difference of LOVE AND LIKE anymore.Someone can say I love my dog and same time say they love you.Someone can say he loved his pet snake and tarantula so much the same thing saying he loved his girlfriend so much.So that got me confused.Since when did the snake and the tarantula level up with the love that a man can give to his woman? Is there really a difference between LOVING AND LIKING because I hear the " I love " phrase used in a day a hundred times without really meaning it at all.Sometimes,you're just surprised,awed,amazed,overwhelmed,or maybe you just run out of words to say and you just ended saying I love you!(Like it's a default answer to everything).So if you're asking me if I have ever loved,I really think so.I have loved the sunset,the sky,the air,the bees,the coffee,the chair,the color of someone's eyes,the songs,the books and my leather boots.Do you want me to go on and on? So you see,I have loved so much.In my literature class in High School,my teacher told me someday we'll meet someone,take note the quantity "one" so am I guilty for loving so much?! I also heard a guy who said he's in love with his car.He loved the color,the wheels,the design but he said he LIKE his girlfriend.Or a guy who is so obsessed with his online games and totally ignore his girlfriend that he adoringly LIKED.So again,to answer your question I suppose there's no human alive who never loved at all.I think?! Is there someone who never loved at all? Like they never love at all? Is that possible? Now about your question when was the last time I had a relationship,let me ask you this; What relationship are you refering to? You have to be more specific.But for your question when was the LAST TIME I had relationship,it was a few minutes ago.I had a wonderful relationship with my coffee because I love the taste of my coffee.Take note,I use the word "Love" hence I had a relationship with my coffee.If you are refering to my relationship with my neighbor's dog or the astray cat that just volunteered for adaption,we are just casual.The dogs always greet me everytime I come home and I did the same thing.I just hope someday,I would be able to tell how a dog smiles because I wanted to find out where the idom "ngising aso" came from when in reality I have never even seen a dog smile.Ngumisi pa kaya?! As for the astray cat,it's just purrrrfect because it's cute.So my relationship with them are casual.If you're asking my relationship with my family,I think they are not aware that I have a relationship with them.Don't worry,I get back to you once I find the answer. If you're asking my relationship with my friends,I'm not sure.I'm just confuse and I lose track of time when was the last time I met a new person because they kinda come into my life randomly at such an unexpected time.I don't really remember when and what time they came into my life.I actually had a brilliant idea,since I have never done that before,for a change maybe I'll start writing the exact time and date a certain person came into my life.Maybe add a few definition like what they are wearing,are they chubby at that time or physically fit? Are they smiling,did they introduce their self first? I'll do that and I'll get back to you. Maybe because I have this random thought that we are living in this world were in we are interconnected.What ever you do,surely it will affect someone out there.The fact that you can affect a thing or someone randomly or innocently is considered a unique form of relationship.So again,to answer your question when was the last time I had a relationship,I think since birth.When mom brought me into this world and someone slapped my chubby butt just to make sure I'm alive hoping I would cry but I didn't because I smiled instead.Hence,they already knew the moment I came out in my mother's womb that I have a beautiful dimple that only comes out when someone slap me on the butt,Oops I mean when I smile of course.
So to summarize all these to answer your question if I have I have ever fallen in love and when was the last time I ever had a relationship,that was really a mind provoking question that deserves a provoked answer.Let me see,how can I summarize all these.Well,all I can say is NEXT QUESTION please. So there,I hope I have answered your questions to the best of my ability and knowledge,so help me God. Wondering and wandering too, glow
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