"I can't breath! For one second,I thought I'm going to die "
I woke up in the middle of my sleep gasping for air.For two weeks,I have suffered from extreme chest pain and I can't sleep well.I cannot eat anything.For two weeks,I was dependent on medicine and water. Have been to different check ups but no doctor can explain why the medicine they prescribed doesn't help at all. After my endoscopy,ultrasound and colonoscopy,I've learned one thing.I am not physically sick.When I finally admit I am in a crazy level of STRESS and did some personal healing without depending too much on medicine,that is how I quickly recovered. We all deal with our personal struggles differently.That we have certain fears that we are afraid to reveal even the closest person we love because we wanted to project an image that is strong and unmoved.With the right amount of comfort from friends,a little bit of self time and break from work,a kiss and a hug from someone who loved you.A treat in the form of a massage,food or even road trips.A time to talk to your friends and mess around with them.A spiritual journey in the form of meditation,prayer or fellowship.Moments of memories from people you adore and love.All these when mixed together yield into a wonderful result that the moment you open your eyes,you see life more beautiful than it ever was.You will be thankful you continued living,unyielding to the scars of yesterday.Well,atleast that's how I self medicate. I've learned that you should take time to know yourself fully.Know your strengths and weaknesses.Know what makes you feel better.Know when to stop.Know what your priorities are.Know what consume your strength and know how you cope up.Know how to pray.Learn to meditate.Always be thankful and grateful.Surround yourself with positive,loving and kind people. Know that you are not oblige to open up your fears and frustrations to anyone if you are not comfortable talking about it.But talking to someone helps a lot.Know that if you don't trust anyone to handle your personal struggles,GOD is always willing to listen. Today,I also hope and pray,with everything you went through,you find your best way to deal with your struggles and eventually come around. Lastly,know that everything is temporary and it will soon pass and you can finally say," all is well". #personalhealing
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I stared at you for such a long time without blinking.You were too bright that I can't see anything after I took my eyes off you.I wonder whether I was naturally attracted to your brightness and I ask myself how can I go on being blind for staring too long at you!
-06/02/14- (me staring at the flourescent light,really blinding) “Trying to define yourself is like trying to bite your own teeth.”
— Alan Wilson Watts Archives
April 2017
IT'S MY LIFE
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So I just thought of designing my OWN EPITAPH...
that says;
" I have lived MANY TIMES but ONLY DIE once.And now I'm dead.For real" |