Mourning with the bereaved families but as painful as it is,I am also thankful such men exist giving hope to the living through their bravery and loyal service to their country.
I got it! I got it! I got it! I was extremely happy of the good news today but wait...there's more!
Unfortunately...uh oh..here comes the bad news...BUT..UNFORTUNATELY...yeah,I kinda know what comes next.Next thing I know,I'm crying. Crying of frustration.Crying of anger.Crying for everything.I'm not angry to anyone in specific but I m upset of the situation.The opportunity slips away and the could- have- beens are extremely painful. I have set my heart to it.I have look forward to it.I stayed awake for 18 hours because of my willingness.It paid off! Almost there...wait,NOPE. Current mood: !@$%^&*()_+~!@# HR: Why should we NOT hire you?
Me: * surprised*speechless* stares at the floor* silently screaming "oh boy, I didn't expect this" and... while everyone seemed busy going somewhere, moving to different places, switching jobs, trying different things, busy in their relationships, getting married, having kids, travelling and getting promoted... I am still on the same phase of my life, same job, same pod, same routine.
what the hell is wrong with me?!? "I'm Jealous"
If I were the moon, I could catch your eye--I'm jealous of the moon If I were the wind, I would make you fly--I'm jealous of that too I wish I were the sun shining on your face--caressing like a lover I would wrap you in a warm embrace-- we'd be holdin' one another (I'm jealous of the sun) I'm jealous of the sun (Jealous of the sun) Oh, I'm jealous of the sun Oh, I don't wanna share you with nothing else--I gotta have you to myself Oh--I can't help it--I'm so in love-- I just can't get you close enough, no [Chorus:] When the sun's on your skin-- I can't hold it in And I know it's a sin-- but I'm jealous of the sun I wish I were the rain runnin' down your neck--and drippin' from your fingers Then I could be the drops rollin' off your back--I'd love to let it linger (Jealous of the rain) Oh, I'm jealous of the rain Oh, I don't wanna share you with nothing else--I gotta have you to myself Oh--I can't help it--I'm so in love-- I just can't get you close enough, no [Chorus:] When it rains on your face-- I almost can taste Your beauty, your grace-- I'm jealous of the rain [Instrumental Solo] [Chorus:] When the wind's in your hair-- the way it blows through the air Oh, it's seems so unfair, yeah [Chorus:] When the moon's in your eyes-- you seem to light up the skies, yeah And I realize-- I'm even jealous of the moon |
I stared at you for such a long time without blinking.You were too bright that I can't see anything after I took my eyes off you.I wonder whether I was naturally attracted to your brightness and I ask myself how can I go on being blind for staring too long at you!
-06/02/14- (me staring at the flourescent light,really blinding) “Trying to define yourself is like trying to bite your own teeth.”
— Alan Wilson Watts Archives
April 2017
IT'S MY LIFE
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So I just thought of designing my OWN EPITAPH...
that says;
" I have lived MANY TIMES but ONLY DIE once.And now I'm dead.For real" |