And everyone is capable to commit a passionate crime.And everyone deserves the compassion to start again." -Manfredi de la Francesco Ferrer to Bette Well, I'll tell you what, my friend, you can judge me all you want to.You make me into a pariah, I fucking deserve it.But don't you dare interfere with my life like that.Okay? Don't cross that line again! -Bette to Al Whether or not you and Bette eventually reconcile especially if you decide to get back together and rebuild your relationship? First, you need to have your autonomy." -Joyce to Tina I need to try and be self-sufficient.Well, I've never really been on my own before and I think that I need to just to feel scared...I'm terrified of being on my own.I just gotta make myself do it, Robin, and I can't - I can't distract myself by creating all this fucking labyrinth-like drama that I'm so good at creating and I promise you that you do not want to get sucked into my fucking bullshit....That's why I think we should end this right now before I disappoint you any more than I obviously have. -Jenny to Robin "I was engaged once before.Well his name was Bayard. He was smart and successful.He was a real estate lawyer.He was totally in love with me. Now, I tried really hard to make that one work.But every night I would wake up in the middle of the night, crying.And one night, Bayard woke up and he found me like that. Do you know what he did? He got down on one knee and he said, "Tonya, will you not marry me?" "Because I know what's in your heart.And I love you too much to make you unhappy.Be true to yourself, Tonya.Follow your heart." Bette: How did I let this get so fucked up, Shane? Shane:Shit's not always in our control. Bette: I used to think that it was. Shane: I learned early on that if you want to avoid that big mess that sucks and fucks with your life you just keep it simple. Bette: You mean like sex with no emotional entanglements? Shane: Right.That's just me.I don't think that applies to you, you're a very well-rounded individual. Bette: We were just talking about sex with no emotional entanglements. Jenny: I like the sound of that. Shane: It's not for everyone PREVIOUSLY....Tina went to see the most popular gay lawyer in town -Joyce as suggested by Alice thinking it might help her figure out what she needed to do. Joyce was pushing Tina to get what's hers but Tina told her she doesn't want any of Bette's money and property.But she took her advice to have her own autonomy and stop taking care of others and start taking care of herself. (You know one thing though,if caring for others is really what you are,you can't help but be it.Yes, you may get too tired one day from caring too much but when you're confronted by certain situation,you can't help but care because that's who you are) The PLANET was closed and Kit was doing everything she can to come up with 75 grand for the down payment for the place.Bette co signed with the loan but still needed 50 grand so her last option was Ivan but Bette disapproves.Kit went to see Ivan anyway who by the way have avoided her after Kit saw him in his "HER form",apparently it was a big deal for him that seemed to be the end of his manhood. The ladies has to eat somewhere and Shane was having a hard time placing an order because she's not familiar.Tonya and Dana joined the,Tonya ordered for Dana because apparently,whatever Tonya orders,she's also up to it and of course,Alice can't stand it.(So it seemed that no one really cook their food.Everyone went to eat outside or go for a take out) At the CAC,Bette was checking all the houses James had chosen for her as he asked him to find the best house for Tina and is willing to pay 6 months lease and she doesn't care if her savings will fall flat as long as Tina has a place to stay and hoping will come home one day.(Wow,she's really that cool!) They were busy sorting out when her lawyer came to her door telling her Tina's lawyer Joyce called him much to her surprise and disappointment. Bette went to Alice' place upset looking for Tina.When Al admitted she was the one who suggested that Tina should see a lawyer,they argued... B: You sent her to fucking Joyce Wischnia? Al: I just suggested she see a lawyer! B: Fuck you! Al: Fuck me?! B: Yeah, fuck you! Weren't you my friend? Al: You know, I'm still your friend! I'm totally your friend, but you can be a little cruel! I've been there. I remember. B: That's low.You and I dated for six weeks, it was never gonna go anywhere, I did us both a favor. Al: It's just Tina's hurting.And I would kind of like my place back.Someday. B: Well, I'll tell you what, my friend, you can judge me all you want to.You make me into a pariah, I fucking deserve it. But don't you dare interfere with my life like that.Okay? Don't cross that line again! Al: I didn't mean to cross a line.I'm sorry! As for Jenny,she enrolled into a writing class.Her instructor asked them to write about the HUNTER AND THE HUNTED to which she asked Jenny if her story was based on reality and she admitted it was.Well,her instructor can tell the difference between a story based on reality versus pure fiction because according to her,reality lacks imagination. Carmen and Shane spent time together and she suggested she can come to Shane's place but Shane told her she can't because her room mate was there also she's getting a lap dance. Carmen teasingly offered to do a lap dance for Shane(ah,seductress!) and she told her it was not for her but for Tina who just got out from a long term relationship. Kit went to see Ivan to his shop but he wasn't there and no one is willing to tell where she was.Kit pleaded and she managed to find Ivan for the business proposal and the 50k she needed for the down payment the following day before she meets Marina's family for the deal. Tonya suggested that they should asked Dana's parents blessing to their wedding.Dana was skeptic but Tanya insist.Dana was having a hard time expressing herself infront of her parents so Tonya did the talking.She told them about her first engagement with a man who loved her so much that he has to let her go because he don't think Tonya loved him the way he loved her.And well,just like that Dana's mom broke down and gave them a big hug.Thanks Tonya! The gang met again for dinner and Shane was suggesting Tina to fix the relationship instead of falling apart which by the way Tina seemed to have taken Joyce suggestion to take her autonomy so she can have equal footing with Shane.It so happened that it was the same place where Bette went to pick her take out dinner and saw them all together.Shane noticed her and went after her just to apologize.( Ah Shane,what were you apologizing for when you did them both huge favor) Can these two stop pretending nothing's going on because every time they are together,the sexual tension is unbearable! Also,Shane kinda notice so....Watching Tonya and Dana on PDA seemed to have bothered Al making her uncomfortable so she went to the bathroom to release the tension and gather herself but Dana followed her.Alice started reminding Dana of the rules they came up with.Dana reasoned out she really needed to pee and well,sexual tension alert.They almost kissed when Tonya showed up telling them to hurry up cause Tina is having a lap dance. Tina was getting her lap dance while Al and Shane watched her and they noticed she's not having a good time.Not sure if it was because earlier she saw Bette and she must have all these conflicted feelings that she felt so distracted. they probably thought what a waste of time and money to have treated Tina for a lap dance only she doesn't seem to be enjoying the night...Robin and Jenny went to see a friend Nora and her partner who have adopted a chinese baby.It was from their that Jenny found out Robin was almost engaged only she was cheated on her wedding day.When they got home,Jenny talked to her ending their relationship.at first,Jenny came up with this lame excuses but in the end,she said she wanted to focus on her self and be self reliant as she really was never on her own. R: Do you want to be alone or can I come in? J:I don't.I think that we need to talk. R: Okay. Talk to me. J:I like you very much. R:That's a very bad way to begin a conversation. J:Okay, I'm sorry.I'm just not ready to be married again. R: Well Jen, I haven't asked you to marry me. J: Robin, it's so obvious to me, that's what you want.And I kind of feel like I don't know, that you set me up or something. R: Oh, no, no, no.No, they leapt to that conclusion 'cause that's what they want for me. Ya know? You can't punish me just because my friends want me to find,you know, an equitable partner. J: Okay, I'm - I'm not trying to punish you.Look, Robin, I'm just realizing that, um, I need to I - I just need to be alone right now. R: Jen, you can have time alone.You don't have to be with me every second. J: Okay, um uh I need to try and be self-sufficient.Well, I've never really been on my own before and I think that I need to just to feel scared. R: There's nothing to be scared of.I - I'm not a scary person. J: Oh Robin, come on.I mean I'm - I'm so - I'm terrified of being on my own.I just gotta make myself do it, Robin, and I can't - I can't distract myself by creating all this fucking labyrinth-like drama that I'm so good at creating and I promise you that you do not want to get sucked into my fucking bullshit. R: You know what? Don't.Okay? Don't - don't tell me what I want and don't want. I know what I fucking want. J: Okay, well I'm gonna speak for myself.Please. This is uh - this is what I want. R:I can't believe you're doing this.I I can't go through this again. J: I don't know Robin, that's why I'm saying we should stop now before we actually go through anything. R: Can I ask you something? Did I blow it by taking you to meet my friends today? J:No.I think that your friends seem like really good people.And they seem, uh very mature and very um settled in their life. R:So, um you don't want to be in a relationship? J:No, I don't. R: You just wanna sleep with people.Make them fall in love with you, o you can fuck with their heads. J:No, that's not what I want. R: Well, that's what you did.Great. J: That's why I think we should end this right now before I disappoint you any more than I obviously have. Kit and Bette met with Count Ferrer for the business deal.He despised Bette for being judgemental and also he revealed that he was Marina's husband for 12 years! F: I am Manfredi de la Francesco Ferrer. K:Si? Oh, si, buonasera Count - Manfredi. F:Si.I don't have a lot of time, so just show me what I need to know. K:The money is in place? F:I want a glass of wine. B:Uh, red or white? Red.French or Italian. F:Not one of those California abominations. K: Well I've heard that California wines are pretty good these days. F: I hate Los Angeles.I don't know why Marina came here. K:This is a loan for $75,000 dollars, with a contingency. F:Si? Uh, si, yes. K: I have here $50,000 dollars in a cashier's check. B: I think Marina felt she had a home here.She had a lot of good friends. F: Bullshit. F: Who are you? Which one is Kit Porter? K: I am. F: And you are? B:Bette Porter. F: Ahh.Si.You're the one. - B: The one what? F:Such judges, you Americans.You sit in judgment on the whole world.Who gave you this power to judge? B: Now, wait a minute your highness, or whatever you would like for us to call you F: Are you really such an exemplary person? Are you perfect, are you better than anyone else? B: No.No, I'm not. F: You're so conventional, you Americans.Thinking one style of life is better than another? - We have so many ways. B: Look, I know that I judged Marina too harshly, - but that doesn't give you the right F: The heart is stronger than the head.Remember.And everyone is capable to commit a passionate crime.And everyone deserves the compassion to start again. K: Amen to that. B: So how is your daughter, is she okay? F: My daughter? B: Marina. F:Marina is not my daughter.We are married twelve years.Marina is my wife! And she is in a hospital in Milano, and no thanks to your friendship.Everything looks here to be in order.My people will call you to conclude the business. Their surprise reaction though! Hahaha! Tina on her room trying to do herself but she cannot concentrate.Was she turned on by the stripper or was it because she saw Bette and feelings just overwhelmed her.Who would if she can hear Bette laughing at her from the inside of her head. While she tried to do herself,Bette was on her house' porch drinking later on joined by Shane and Jenny.She rarely drinks and doesn't smoke but since her break up with Tina,this is the second time she was drinking alone on her home and first time she decided to smoke.(And she was smoking hot) at least she's laughing :)Jenny came holding a newspaper telling her she put an add asking for a room mate to cut the rent expenses and they asked her to join them while they talk about SEX WITH NO EMOTIONAL ENTANGLEMENT. Shane offered to be her roommate and I love how Bette was laughing at them.Ah,Bette can be very judgmental but she's usually right. and of course a very happy Kit who will soon be running her own bar...MY THOUGHTS ON THIS EPISODE...
Anyway,this is what confused me though.I am not sure if it was me not understanding the story because I was too blinded on the love story between Tibette. This is the part where I will be contradicting myself when I said if I wanted a reality show,I should have look somewhere else because LWORD is a fiction and nothing is real.Before I started this show,I told myself it's just for entertainment and fun.I don't care how lame the story would be as long as it is tolerable but it was after watching Ilene's interviews kept pointing out that she was representing the show as real and as truthful as possible specially the TIBETTE love story. LuH and JB also mentioned in their interviews that they fought for their story.They work so hard to be responsible enough to represent their characters on the show as truthful as possible.So,I have started to abandon my feeling of watching the show for entertainment but I have started watching the show like it was a story based on reality.Therefore,I will be at times contradicting whatever I have said previously and maybe in the future reviews,there would be more to come.I am pretty much aware that there wee endless complaints from fans about the realness of the show.I do not expect the show to fit and please me in every way or anyone else.I do not expect the show to perfectly represents our expectation in the most logical and acceptable way possible because this is a show that has other needs too.They have a network to please in terms of revenue.There's too much to handle and I understand if I were in Ilene's shoes,I cannot imagine creating a show and keep it running for six years. So my rant is only on the most basic part that are important to me.My rant may not be reasonable for others or my rant maybe childish but it is just one point of view in one in a million point of views. So anyway,this is where it got confusing and I wanted to understand... In season 1,to help Tina cope up with her depression they went to therapy where she met Oscar who suggested she should volunteer in child services.So the term volunteer,I assume that she doesn't get paid for it.If she's not being paid,then that would explain why she can't afford a place to live that she has to live with Alice for three months after she left Bette or cheating on her.She has no money and nothing.That Alice suggested she should see a lawyer to get some advice.Was Alice doing all those out of concern or she's just bummed out that Tina had been staying with her for so long,it was like she's living in with a partner because she has to feed her,give her home,do stuff for her less the sex. So my question is,what was Tina thinking? Well,first of all she was pregnant and kept it for the meantime because she wants to make sure it wouldn't be another miscarriage.And then,she wanted to raise the child on own but she doesn't have a job.She will surely need atleast a job so she can afford raising the child on her own. A lawyer is expensive and a money maker.Once the deal was done,you cannot retract what ever you decided.You have to go to another process again to be able to change something and that would mean money again.Tina doesn't have any money and yet she managed to book an appointment with the most popular gay lawyer in LA? Did Alice paid for her? Also,how did she manage hanging out with her friends and eat with them into some fancy dine in place when she doesn't have money.As far as I know,she needed at least a source of income to be able to afford unless,Alice or her friends pay for her. On top of that,she went to see a lawyer for some advice making her a fool of herself when she said she doesn't want any of Bette's money and the house,and all that they owned was Bette's.She just added Tina's name when they were together.And her lawyer,Joyce suggested she should take what's hers? What will Tina take away from Bette if she has owned all those and just added Tina's name? Are they married? I don't think they are legally married. So Tina then said,she has to have equal footing with Bette.She has to have her own autonomy.God,the reason her relationship with Bette worked for seven years was because she was the perfect fit to Bette's personality.If she'll try so hard to be as authoritative and as demanding and strong headed like Bette just so she can work out things with her,I think it will be an epic fail.So far,relationships that lasted long usually were from two individuals who have opposite personalities but became perfect fit. Did Tina ever considers looking for a job? Did she consider renting a place to live because leaving three weeks with Al seemed too much. THE OTHER SIDE OF SHANE Well,she picked herself pretty much,in fact she's seeing less people and she's seeing just one girl Carmen.Everywhere she went,it must be hard to resists women lining up on her but I am not one of those women who wanted to sleep with her. I am one of those who wanted to keep her as my best friend.Of all the characters,she's less dramatic.She see things as is and then when shit happens,it happens and she doesn't over think and move on.She strikes me as the person who would do everything for her friends but she's not the kind who will cross the line. She have this "I don't do relationship" and I don't have any future plans.She's got this HAKUNA MATATA attitude but deep in her heart,she has adored a monogamous relationship.Remember that moment in Season one where she saw Tina and Bette at their front porch just drinking coffee holding hands like two people who just fall in love? She looked them both with envy and deep admiration.She secretly wanted that kind of relationship. When Tina and Bette broke up,AL suggested Tina should see a lawyer because she's hurting,she's got nothing while Shane suggested she doesn't need a lawyer.She needed a lap dance.(Which is by the way so cool) Anyways,Shane set up a lap dance for Tina but when Tonya found out Dana didn't experience it at all,Tonya immediately arranged a lap dance for her future bride too. So my point here is Shane is the kind of friend who obviously would do anything to help Tina pick up herself with the hopes that she and Bette will fix their relationship.If Alice cross the line,Shane knew where to draw the line and be really a cool friend.All she saw are two people hurting and she wanted to help them both. I would like her to be my friend because she can keep secrets,she's trusted and well she doesn't interfere with your relationship unless asked of her opinion.She just think of ways to uplift you.While most of their friends hang out with Tina,Shane hang out with both of them.She was the one who went to Bette just to tell say sorry which in the first place,he didn't do anything. But then she was also the one who hang out with Bette when she felt lonely because no one wanted to talk to her.She's chill like that.She doesn't dig if her friends doesn't want to talk about things. THE MRS AND MRS BRIDE TO BE I sense something really ugly between Dana and Tonya if they go on with their wedding.Dana was always this passive athlete who lets Dana decide and manage her,not only her career but her plans,her food and pretty much everything.As much as I dislike Tonya,I like her for having the decency to talk with Dana's parents because their blessing is so important for her.Dana obviously doesn't have the nerve to convince her parents,I mean she's not good with words and Tonya did all the talking.She talked about her first engagement where she was supposed to marry this man because it was the right thing to do and it is what's acceptable to the society but the man loved her so much and asked her not to marry him because he felt Tonya will never ever be happy again.Well,her dramatic emotional story worked! Thanks to her,they got Dana's parents' blessing. BUT... What's going on between her and Alice? So if Al didn't kiss her and didn't express her feelings for her,Dana loved Tonya? But now,she's conflicted? Was it also a crime of passion? When will Dana learn to decide and pick for her own? They decided to come up with rules of unattraction. They talk about avoiding each other.They talk about anything to stay away from each other but the opposite happens.They kiss,they spend time secretly.They shared intimate moments whenever together. COUNT DRACULA WENT TO LA Wait,call me lame and maybe I am but Marina's end story wasn't only lame but also the writers seemed to have made fun of it. So Count Dracula met Kit and Bette at the planet for the payment,Bette assumed he was Marina's father for the obvious reasons.Much to both ladie's surprise,he introduced himself as Marina's husband for 12 years! Whatever Marina told him about Bette must be fueled by hatred and anger because he displayed a disdainful attitutde to Bette.In Bette's defense,even if she's such a control freak and uptightly judgemental,it is because she cares for her friend Tim. Call it passionate crime and everyone is entitled to commit one mistake and start again.Wow,that was a good way to make excuse for cheating.He seemed to be the coolest but the most unconventional man on earth for allowing his wife to go to LA,a place that he hated so much and never talk to her that long.If Marina's family and husband were well off,why was Marina struggling so much to buy out the planet from Francheska who have reminded her that she has saved her financially twice and that she has to work hard for her.There must be a good explanation and there's a long interesting story to tell but too bad,she's off the show. JENNY & ROBIN SEX WITH NO STRINGS ATTACHED ISN'T FOR EVERYONE The Robin & Jenny drama seemed more realistic to me.Jenny's reason to break up with her was acceptable to me actually.Remember she came to town as this shy little girl who rely so much on Tim.She speaks her mind very carefully starting with "I think" denoting how uncertain she was. The neighborhood she came to was overwhelming and too much to bear.Because she doesn't have that experience and she was trying to figure out her life in a new town with an incredible boyfriend,she have come face to face with things that was all new to her.Because she doesn't have that much experience she end up fucked up one thing after the other.She had driven the man who loved her so much.She fell in love to the most unpredictable woman.She has no idea what's going on in her head on top of her multiple personality disorder.Did they know she's going through something? No,all they see is a weak girl and they preyed on her.Did someone really tried to approach her and see what's going on in her head? Maybe that's why she was deeply connected to Marina because they seem to share something chaotic inside that any regular person can understand.It's easy to hate and dislike something we don't understand and doesn't go to our own moral code. It took her a while to have these realizations.When Tim left,she felt abandoned.When Marina left,she felt responsible and guilty.And now,she's dating a wonderful woman and she's not sure anymore of herself.I know that feeling where sometimes you doubt yourself.You doubt your own decision.And you wonder why you keep attracting people to this whole chaos you created.If they don't get tangled,they leave.And you end up feeling it was your fault because you are fucked up and no one understands you at all.I actually fear that Jenny's situation might trigger something in her and she will go too far before she knew it.I hope in her quest to be self reliant and doing things on her own,still someone will look after her just to make sure she won't fall apart. Count Ferrer did say the heart is stronger than the brain but for people like Jenny who's mind doesn't seem to stop going further,it can corrupt the heart and sadly,the whole being of your existence before you knew it. So I would like to know,what is cheating? How do we categorize something as a Passionate Crime? Sometimes,I wonder how we came up with so much things as an excuse to escape taking responsibility of something bad we did.I have dealt with people in my life who sometimes hurts me on purpose and have to come up with a lame excuse to get out of it.It's true,we shouldn't be too judgemental at all.We shouldn't interfere into other people's lives but we should also be responsible enough in our own actions as to not be the source of other people's loss and grief.
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