Verma,
I'm so thankful I have one person in my life who just knows how to make things better when I'm loosing sense.You are that friend who knows how to pull me back all together when I am sappy and lethargic. You are that friend who will tell the words I may not want to hear but needed to hear so I can gather myself,get back to my senses and keep moving on.The person who pulls me up always when I'm just down below the lifeline. Verms,I can't count how many times you pulled me through and I cannot thank you enough.Thank you so much,words are not enough. This is the friendship I will not trade for anything and will do everything I can to keep it as much as I can.I may not be able to return the same favor to you as I know you are stronger and much more matured but I will be that person you can never get rid off easily.I will live longer so I can annoy you longer as long as I am alive.Be warned! Happy Birthday! Please take care of yourself so you live longer too.That way we can annoy each other longer. I wish you good health,stronger bones and rayuma free year! Happy birthday my soul sister,my friend! Love you tons! PS, Di porket di ako makakain at all eh ligtas ka na sa pagtreat sa akin.Wait when I get better,you will treat me to an eat all you can!
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I have wished for nothing but to make her smile and laugh.Hearing her laugh again last night felt like a warm blanket to my aching soul. Happy 58th Mama. Keep smiling because you've got beautiful dimples! It's been a week that I'm suffering from extreme chest pain and back ache.I can't eat anything because even the smallest piece of food that ever will reach my stomach makes it so painful for one whole day! For fear that I might suffer from ulcer,I try to eat at least a piece of banana and have to face the consequence.No antacid or medicine ever prescribed to me helped.I have to manually suffer each day.
When people ask me what's wrong,I just don't find the strength to explain because it's even more painful describing what I feel and them not understanding what it actually feel at all. I still come to work because I am not allowed to render absences unless I have a valid medical certificate.Unfortunately,no doctor will ever agree to give me such unless confined. I didn't give in to the idea to be confined because no one can even pinpoint what's wrong with me but to confine me? Not to mention I do not have any family here with me to look after me while being hospitalized. Good thing,I have invested so much physically so people can't tell I'm sick because I still look physically healthy.But the point is,the mental and physical pain I have to deal with is so difficult and painful. I am scheduled for Endoscopy,Colonoscopy,Ultra Sound and Gastro on Monday because according to the doctor who checked me,he is not available the whole week.Gosh,thanks doc,I should learn how to suppress my pain so I can wait til you are available. |
I stared at you for such a long time without blinking.You were too bright that I can't see anything after I took my eyes off you.I wonder whether I was naturally attracted to your brightness and I ask myself how can I go on being blind for staring too long at you!
-06/02/14- (me staring at the flourescent light,really blinding) “Trying to define yourself is like trying to bite your own teeth.”
— Alan Wilson Watts Archives
April 2017
IT'S MY LIFE
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So I just thought of designing my OWN EPITAPH...
that says;
" I have lived MANY TIMES but ONLY DIE once.And now I'm dead.For real" |