DESIRE.SEX HUMOR. NERVOUS CUSTOMERS.WEIRD MEN FANTASIES.DANGER.EXCITEMENT.PAIN.PLEASURE. I swear there are million silly things running in my mind while watching it.Also, I laugh way too much each episode.This is a tv series made not to turn you on but to present you with the funnier side of being an escort.As Belle puts it,she's also a public servant! On a serious note,of course there are so many serious problems an escort have to deal with in real life.No matter how they want to separate what they do for work and what they do in real life,still people in general cannot look at them without judgement most specially family.It was well emphasized the whole four seasons. At first,she kept her job as a secret to everybody even to her boyfriend but eventually they found out and it became a major issue.Her boyfriend broke up with her.He felt shocked,disgusted and betrayed when he found out what Hannah does for living. " I want to do things with you that I don't want to do with my friends" "No one really knows everything about anyone" - Alex Pretty much a normal reaction I must say.If I were in his shoes,I might have reacted worse than the way he reacted.There would be too many questions if I were in a relationship with a hooker. My confidence will go down the drain because I can't help but think she might compare me to the many clients she slept with.Also,I have fears that she will eventually find someone who will connect with her soul or be better than I am considering how many clients she has to deal with every single day. It's a crazy situation to be in I suppose. I will not consider having kids because sooner they will find out their own mother's past and they will disdain her and that would be painful to me.Well,that's just my initial reaction anyway. This is the diary of a London high class escort known as Hannah by day and Belle at night.She worked hard until she became a courtesan. A courtesan was originally a courtier, which means a person who attends the court of a monarch or other powerful person.I guess something that most escorts would envy like sort of a promotion in the escort industry. Well,at first it sounded great which made the other girls envy her but eventually,she got bored so she decided to leave because she simply feel like living a domestic lifestyle.She get back to London and became an independent escort with an all out support from Ben,her one and only truest lover and friend. Well it's complicated. She doesn't have friends in her industry because it's hard to be friends with anyone so the only person she really have in her life who accepts and love her without judgement is Ben. I once watched an interview of an ex porn star on Tyra Banks show where she mentioned one of the saddest thing within in their industry is real friendship doesn't exist.As much as you want to have friends within the industry whom you have something in common,she says it's just plain hard. Like in this story,Belle was being nice to the girl who took advantage of her kindness and turned her down instead by stealing her clients. THE UPSIDE OF BEING AN ESCORT
DOWNSIDE
THINGS WORTH REVEALING
ON HAVING RELATIONSHIP "I really love breaking up with you, can we do it sometime" She's an escort.Hannah by day and Belle by night.If you were the guy who's in a relationship with her,how do you imagine your relationship? You must really love her so much to be able to stay by her.But how can you commit yourself to someone who probably is too tired at the end of the day to even make love to you? How about seeing her with a client? Or hearing her talk about her clients? Unless,you two have set a boundary not to discuss work ever then I guess that won't be an issue. She fell in love with Ben and things got complicated between them and her ex Alex.She let Ben meet Alex and things got awkward. Ben was the guy who knew her yet accepted everything about her.He was the guy who gets to see every client she fucks and still wait for her to come home to him. ESCORT SERVICE For some reason,I'm starting to think escort service is somehow public service! It's something that's not only about sex but more of giving service to men who have other needs that they can't just open up to their love ones. Belle has all those sort of funny,scary and weird clients.I remember that episode where a crippled guy's dad brought him to Belle and the dad waited til they finish. How can you have sex with someone physically challenged without feeling any pity? I mean,an escort must have an extra skill to be able to handle such things professionally. There's this guy who turned her world upside down . She's willing to change for him but there's her best friend who is willing to do the same thing for her. There's this guy who knows everything about her but loved her still despite everything.And there's this other the guy who was so disgusted after finding the truth about her. When you met someone who will changed you or in her case she fell in love but she wasn't love for who she is,what will you do? I bet it's easy to say just let go of that person who judged her but what if,you fell in love like you can just imagine a future with him? Ben was always there in good and bad times. He believed in her and pushed her to publish a book. In the end, she celebrated her success with two people that are real to her,her only real friends. DEALING WITH REAL LIFE SHITS. A daughter who don't know her mother's real job for 18 years only to find out her mother has been hosting girls her own age for escort services. Or when there's family gathering and you go home and your parents where like,"this is my daughter" and they will ask you so "what do you do for living" and you have to invent one lie after the other. Or you are in social gatherings and things really get awkward when you see some clients there.Either you have to pretend to be cool or you get them nervous.Cool job isn't it. But at the end of the day,you realized all you have is yourself.You probably don't have much friend because you will be the center of gossip on their family dinners or conversation to other people. You can't share your family what's going on because who would want to talk about how much you fuck and what clients ask you to do? But it's your choice and you can handle it on your own.It's just the people around you who can stand what you do because in their moral standard,you're a whore and you're a social disgrace. So what do you do for a living? Maybe,it's time to leave and don't even bother to answer. CHOICES When you are in porn industry,it was said that you have the most digusting job by day and most needed job at night.I mean everyone who probably knows you will despise you or pretend they don't know you.Even your own family.The way you carry yourself depends on you. But being in the industry requires looks and desirability.Meaning,it's not a permanent job.Once you lose your looks,it's just easy to replace you. As she got older,she realized she must do something before she'll get replaced. Belle worked as a waiter at Ben's bar while writing a book anonymously to protect her clients and her identity. As a result,some people are taking the credit but failed to prove it. Reminds me of Coelho's book "Eleven Minutes". For her,her job is somehow can be considered as a public service if only people are open minded.If only they know,most of her customers are not after sex at all.They just need some sort of encouragement. The weird thing is,in reality when she saw her best friend and sister making out for fun,the truth hurts her.How could she do her job like it was nothing to her but when it was flashed before her,it really hurts. In life, there were moments where you are bombarded by choices. LIFE IS SERIOUSLY NOT A FAIRY TALE NOR A BED OF ROSES.IT JUST DOESN'T END THE WAY WE IMAGINE THINGS.SOMETHINGS THEY JUST END UGLY BECAUSE THAT'S ONE PART OF LIFE. In season 4,there's a man, a detective who knew every bit of her.He makes everything for her exciting.When she's with him,it felt like she just forgot all her troubles. On the other hand,she loved Ben undoubtedly but they are not just compatible. She cannot give him what he needed as a man.To make it easier for all of them,she ended her relationships and decided that things should be the way they were before,friends.No commitment,no responsibility at the same time,they still get to talk about stuff. After all,Ben is all she's got.She must keep her and to be able to keep that level of intimacy,he must remain her friend.
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