I have tried so hard to cheer up but for some reason, I didn't have the enthusiasm. The only family with me at the moment was my brother Spencer but didn't even celebrate with him.
Last year, my 31st was very busy and exciting but this year it was the opposite. I was however very thankful because what mattered is people I genuinely cared for remembered me. My favorite was the text message coming from my mom a day after. It always makes me cry every time I read it.It meant the world to me! That cheered me up and gave me the joy and encouragement to go on. If mom, despite all those years of pain and hard work finds joy and delight in having us,shame on me to complain so much when my pain was not even a dot compared to hers.
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I stared at you for such a long time without blinking.You were too bright that I can't see anything after I took my eyes off you.I wonder whether I was naturally attracted to your brightness and I ask myself how can I go on being blind for staring too long at you!
-06/02/14- (me staring at the flourescent light,really blinding) “Trying to define yourself is like trying to bite your own teeth.”
— Alan Wilson Watts Archives
April 2017
IT'S MY LIFE
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So I just thought of designing my OWN EPITAPH...
that says;
" I have lived MANY TIMES but ONLY DIE once.And now I'm dead.For real" |